Thursday, December 4, 2014

Starbucks Planner Bandwagon

Ohhhh yeahhh I jumped on the bad wagon to get a Starbucks planner.... I got 12 tickets in like less than a week... Thanks to all my friends helping me hehehe :)

I use to think "why can't you just buy a nice planner thats not too expensive at national bookstore?" or like "aren't you going to get sick from all that coffee?".... I don't know what got into me, but I'm doing it now too. I like the challenge and my class schedule has been totally spaced out so I have a few hours to kill so why not Starbucks and study there for a while before class.... Ehhh its a win win situations I guess.....
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Friday, November 28, 2014

The anger I have been feeling

I had been dreading whether to share my story to the world. Maybe I'm in the same position as other Single moms out there. Or maybe I cant get some questions and answers. And maybe help.

It's 11:13pm and I can't seem to shake the words Mimi's Father has been messaging me. He wants to come back, be with his daughter, be with me and work things out. I haven't seen him in almost 3 years. 3 years... You see, we got married when I was 6 months pregnant, but shortly after that actually a week after we got married, we both separated ways. He had to go to Nepal for his profession and I had to go to America to deliver Mimi there. Our relationship was still working fine. I gave birth to my adorable daughter and she is the most amazing miracle that has ever happened to me. She was a healthy baby girl. I am very thankful for that. 
Mimi's father and I still communicated thru skype and phone calls. He saw his baby girl only thru the webcam. Skype was ringing all the time and then time passed and it got less and less until there were none. I tried to call multiple times, but the line was always busy, cant reach, or when he answers he was busy because of this occupation. After that I would always complain that he doesn't have time for us. He then gave many excuses like He needed to go to the clinic and help patients. The time difference. He is just very tired. This is when Long Distant Relationships stop working, because there is no more communication and communication is the key to relationships.

In the 24 hours in a day is there really no time to to set aside 10 minutes and call your family?

We fought a lot and then we made up and then fought again. It became a roller coaster. We had a lot of problems. He also has not supported us ever since. Hell he didn't even buy me prenatal vitamins. And now he has the audacity to tell me that he will be here in christmas and that we should work things out? He also sent Mimi and I a Sari.... and expects me to call his cousin to pick it up. Are you kidding me? You think that a Sari will make up the 3 years that Mimi didn't having a father? 

At this point.....
I have already given up and made up my mind.
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